Have you ever gotten to the piont where you say to women/woman "Ok you win"?

Obviously, from all the information you provided up there, you're overeacting, play it cool, how old are you man? you sound like ur runnin out of time or somethin'... what's the rush......you have wants and cravings and it's not going your way, it ain't just bout females or relationships... almost everything in life plays out that way, that is, if you can't get your mind straight, so all i'm saying is, first get your mind right, from what you were saying in the last bits.. sounds like you're in over your head, you trying to take control of yourself by "using emotions"...... emotions cant control nuttin'....go with logic....if you put 10 other dudes that went thru the exact same situation as you in the same room, i'm pretty sure at least 50% of them will react differently from how you did, why is that then? its your attitude bro'.... you got to chill....sit back and yze otherwise you will get it wrong for the rest of your life... trust me, you dont want your own doing to long-term backfire...